The Secrets You Tell Your Teddybear.

Roommates. February 26, 2012

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This weekend, I had a couple girls back out of being suite mates with my roommate and me next year. Why?

The reason that they gave my roommate (who is good friends with them) was that they did not want to be around me. I was a bad influence. Because they are in young life they can’t do it.

In reality, they both like to go out as often as I do (which is not much, maybe once a month at the most.) They really just want my current roommate and another one of their friends to be roommates and live with them.

Why can’t they just tell me that? Instead of making it seem like I’m a terrible person and they don’t want to associate with me.

My feelings are so hurt.


Protected: Your mom. February 15, 2011

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I wonder what will heal faster: December 9, 2010

Filed under: friends,work/internship — teddygrams @ 10:35 pm
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This burn on my arm or the hole in my heart?

Yes I realize this is a tad dramatic. It was just a thought that crossed my mind as I told my friend about how my burn is starting to open up. It’s interesting how the progression of the burn matches that of the situation that I’m in right now.

I shouldn’t have tried to help out by trying to make the oil hit the trash can instead. I should have just let things happen as they did.

Immediately after I got hurt, I did some damage control and went on working to the best of my ability.  I went through the motions mindlessly and put on my best fake smile. It gave me time to dwell on the idea of the burn, I thought about what my arm had looked like before, just in case it never looks the same again. I wanted to remember. After the working day was over and I finally got a chance to think about the pain, it hit me. I left the wound visible for a little while and shared my battle story with my friends and family. Soon, I decided that this was enough and I started covering it. As of now, I’m reaching the point where the skin is coming off, the rawness of the wound is showing. It still hurts, but only when I think about it, stretch the skin, or move too quickly. I guess I could just wait on it to heal on its own, but that it the best way to gain a scar. Burns heal slowly. While they heal, they make a person more susceptible to illness – it is broken skin after all.  I’ll do what I can to help it heal. The doctor says it will take months. Even with all the different creams and treatments, there maybe a scar on my arm forever.