TeddyGrams

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Cookie-monster. February 15, 2011

Filed under: random — teddygrams @ 11:25 pm
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I am officially the heaviest that I have ever been. I’m sort of numb. The last 3 months have been nothing but looking for constant distractions, one of which was food. I have picked up a slight addiction to Famous Amos cookies. It is a problem. I am seeing that.

My indulgence.

 

I have gone from being a light-weight-vegan to having a BMI over 21.

This is slightly embarrassing, but I’m about to use the excuse that many adults use. I don’t have time to get back into shape. I guess now starts the fight to try to eat healthy and to get back into a routine. One that involves sleep so I’m not so tired all the time.

I feel so gross. This has to change. Going vegan again would be such an easy fix, but I think this time, I have to be practical. I must learn to turn away from the call of the cookies.

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I need a distraction. November 25, 2010

Filed under: random,thoughts — teddygrams @ 9:12 pm
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To take my focus from how uncomfortably full I am. I’m close to my bathroom just in case. Each minute feels like and hour and I am trying my best to get through. The silly thing is that my body has yet another way to signal to me that it needs nourishment now. I don’t like feeling that way without it being my choice. I’m considering just letting it happen until there is nothing left to make me feel like this.

Music makes me feel more awful. I think it’s because whenever I hear anything, I sort of dance inside of my head. Dancing with a full stomach is no fun.

I met someone new today, my mom’s friend’s son. He is a strong advocate of UGA. He went there and got into Medical School. It gives me something to think about. I really don’t even want to to be in engineer.

He talked politics over Thanksgiving dinner. I enjoyed what he had to say, but then again I like hearing my conservative father discuss things with young liberals. One of the things this new guy talked about was the general shift in views as people age. “If you are young and not liberal, then you have no heart; but if you are old and not conservative, then you have no brain.” This was the first time that I heard this quote, after some intense Googling I learned that it is well known among those who are knowledgeable when it comes to politics.

Tomorrow is Black Friday. I’m looking forward to getting up and being with my family. I don’t think the four of us (my mom, dad, sister and me) have been in the same car for months. Sadly, the chance of this changing is very slight. Sometimes it feels like we all live out own lives, just happen to live in the same house. When I was younger I was always so concerned with family time. I refused to have the TV on during dinner and I insisted that we all eat together. Now I go downstairs and grab a piece of toast and a handful of cookies before I head to bed most nights.

I’m ready to stop thinking and sleep. No chance of that happening though.