The Secrets You Tell Your Teddybear.

Protected: December 17th. December 17, 2010

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Protected: I’m waiting for the day. December 14, 2010

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I wonder what will heal faster: December 9, 2010

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This burn on my arm or the hole in my heart?

Yes I realize this is a tad dramatic. It was just a thought that crossed my mind as I told my friend about how my burn is starting to open up. It’s interesting how the progression of the burn matches that of the situation that I’m in right now.

I shouldn’t have tried to help out by trying to make the oil hit the trash can instead. I should have just let things happen as they did.

Immediately after I got hurt, I did some damage control and went on working to the best of my ability.  I went through the motions mindlessly and put on my best fake smile. It gave me time to dwell on the idea of the burn, I thought about what my arm had looked like before, just in case it never looks the same again. I wanted to remember. After the working day was over and I finally got a chance to think about the pain, it hit me. I left the wound visible for a little while and shared my battle story with my friends and family. Soon, I decided that this was enough and I started covering it. As of now, I’m reaching the point where the skin is coming off, the rawness of the wound is showing. It still hurts, but only when I think about it, stretch the skin, or move too quickly. I guess I could just wait on it to heal on its own, but that it the best way to gain a scar. Burns heal slowly. While they heal, they make a person more susceptible to illness – it is broken skin after all.  I’ll do what I can to help it heal. The doctor says it will take months. Even with all the different creams and treatments, there maybe a scar on my arm forever.


Finding dupes is so exciting. December 7, 2010

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I have a few products from Ulta’s line that I like. I use their cheek color A LOT, mainly because the packaging is nice. I’m a sucker for it. I find it easier to open them than messing with any of my Cargo tins. During the holidays Ulta always has a little assortment of things that people can grab as stocking stuffers. Nothing very good though.

That was until this year. Or maybe not. I don’t know when Ulta started doing them but their little holiday lipgloss tins are absolutely  wonderful.

They are a dupe for the Urban Decay XXX Shine Lipgloss. I kid you not. I was in the car when I tried it on after my sister offered me some. The texture was something very familiar. I found myself surprised by the scent (peach), I had expected the minty sensation of my higher end Urban Decay stuff. That is how I knew what it reminded me of, the fact that I was expecting it to be even more similar. I watched the wear of it for the rest of the shopping day. It was still there after 4 hours. It had definitely lost some of the initial shine, but I was still happy with it.

Who knew that a 99 cent product could dupe something high-end so easily? I actually held off blogging about this for a few days just to make sure of my feelings. I actually like the Ulta stuff more than the Urban Decay, and I am an avid user of UD products. It could be due to the peachy smell though, similar to Escada Sunset (one of my favorites a few years ago).

Whatever Ulta did with this product was right. That is for sure.



Protected: There is just one difference…

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December 7th.

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December 7th, 1994. Do you know what happen this day?

It was the bombing of Pearl Harbor.

September 11th, 2001. Do you know know what happen this day?

Of course you do. We all remember.

Pearl Harbor and the World Trade Center were similar types of attacks. They both resulted in a spirit of American unity. Each on caused the people of the United States to form a common enemy. Then the were the Axis Powers, more recently they are the Axis of Evil. Why don’t we give even just one moment to stop and remember? If any reason to study the history of the United States, it is to remember all the lives that it took to get us where we are today.

I hate that people forget the past and all that others have done for them. There will be a time when the date September 11th will not mean as much to the world. I hope that people will remember the national heartbreak, but generations to come will not have the experience to remind them. We will have to keep memories alive. Just as we should remember the attacks on Pearl Harbor.


I just had to check. December 2, 2010

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And he is right. A friend texted me asking if I was okay. He had just been reading this stuff. I was surprised that he could tell from my writing that something was wrong and went on to tell him about some things. I came back to actually read what I have written in the past few weeks and man. This is not me. It sounds so awful. Everything.

This has to change.

Currently, I am not blogging because my parents are annoyed that I write so much and I am so far behind on school stuff. I’m playing catch up right now. It’s the end of semester rush. 7 more tests, finals, then freedom. For a couple weeks that is. I need to keep my GPA up for scholarships. I’m going to try to keep my senioristis at the level it is at currently. Maybe even push it a little more.

I must sleep now. I have to wake up in a few hours to study some more.